Earlier this week, I was reading a thought provoking post by A.J. Juliani titled the Power of Writing Every Day, and some of his words stuck with me that I could not shake loose, so I had to write about them.
Instead of focusing my blog as only a place for reflection (which it sometimes is) I’ve tried to make my posts as useful and helpful for other teachers, writers, and learners as possible. Really, I try to teach with my blog as much as possible.
Thinking about my own blog posts, I began analyzing how many were reflection posts and how many were teaching. There are probably too many reflection posts, as I use my writing for reflection, although, we also learn from these reflections, so sometimes, reflection and learning go hand in hand.
The voice of self-doubt then started to creep in and by the time I’d spent a more than adequate time thinking about it, I’d convinced myself that I spend too much time thinking about what to blog about and then actually choosing a topic for my blog to blog about and then wrestling with the content of the blog, revising, editing, etc. . . that by the time I’d finally spent a half a day with a post and hit publish, was the whole mess even worth it? I mean, reflection or teaching ~ what’s it matter if no one reads the dang thing anyway? Seriously, the only one who benefits is me, because maybe I learned from it.
I sat there. Defeated.
Suddenly, a pillow of smoke arose in front of my eyes at my desk.
My candle had decided to go out.
This was strange because there was plenty of wax in there to keep that candle going. But, at that precise moment, it died.
As I looked at the candle, the “Message from My Angel” card sitting next to the candle hooked my attention. It’s message:
You have an important life purpose involving communication and the arts. Please don’t allow insecurities to hold you back. I will help you.
Archangel Gabrielle ~ the angel of communication sits at my side. She is a constant reminder to keep going.
And the candle? It’s message:
Don’t let your dream die out and go up in smoke.