Once nestled in my writing chair to scribe a few words for the day, a quick check of the pen to be sure the cartridge is fully loaded with ink is necessary. There’s nothing quite as tragic as being wrapped up in the flow of writing and, all of a sudden, the ink decides it’s done for the day. I try to prevent this drama at all costs.
I choose the color of hydrangea for my ink this morning, feeling the warm spring energy of the day ahead. A shade of blue “reminiscent of the image of raindrops nestling on its petals”. My giddiness welcomes this change from vintage brown to this fresh color in my notebook.
The glass container which houses this ink is a work of art in itself. Heavy and solid with a slight dip downward at the bottom of the jar – intended for the tip of the nib to drink up ink with ease. Every time I refill my pen, I gaze in awe at this ingenious idea. I often wonder if the bottle is perhaps worth more than the ink it holds and what might I do with the bottle when my ink runs dry? Is there a place I can send empty bottles to and just purchase refills? I’ll need to look into this one day.
A candle is lit and a string of ivory lights around the perimeter of my sanctuary window offer just enough glow to provide light to perform this ritual. There is something about doing this work in the edge of time when the moon waves goodbye to morning dawn as if signaling the night shift is over. The switching on of lamps would disrupt this moment.
I hold the jar steady in my left hand as I ever so slowly and delicately twist off the cap. I envision a nightmare of accidentally dropping the bottle of ink and watching it spill in horror all over my beloved chair and blankets – ruining all forever. My mother would be mortified watching me. A wise person would not fill their pen sitting in an overstuffed chair wrapped in a blanket. They would be at the desk with protective paper underneath. My husband tells me that I’m not the daring kind, but he should see in the morning, filling my pen.
Turning the cap on it’s second twist, a flash of insight arrives. My newfound love of fountain penning has slowed me down – even more than the act of writing itself. All my attention must remain on the filling of this pen. The removal of the barrel, the dipping of the nib into the ink. The slow twist of the cartridge, first to the left to empty remaining ink and air out of the pen, and then ever so gently, a half rotation twist at a time, to the right, to suction the ink up into the cartridge. One jerky slip and catastrophe ruins the whole process.
This act of preparation settles my mind and gives whispers to the writing angels that she’s getting ready. . .
I admire the filled cartridge before sliding the barrel back on, imagining all the pages this single cartridge of ink will fill. How many new discoveries will appear from the letters strung together? Will this ink scribe words of gratitude, angst, or just capture the inner and outer goings on around me? Such mystery it holds!
I decide to give the ink a blessing.
Oh blessed ink. May you only write words of praise for the greater good – words that create community and channel love and compassion into the world.
Well. . . this was a surprise revelation. Perhaps if I’d been blessing my pen and ink all along, I’d have more productive writing days. 🙂
I am participating in the 14th Annual SOL 2021 March challenge. For 31 days, I will attempt to write and share a small slice of life from my days. If you’d like to read more of today’s slices from other teacher-writers, please head over to twowritingteachers, who have also committed to this challenge. When teachers write themselves, they are able to draw from their inner curriculum they have shaped for themselves in which to model and teach their students. But, more than this, as human beings, we also cultivate a writing practice that can be a buoy and and an anchor in the turbulent waters of our lives.
5 thoughts on “Filling the Pen: A Ritual ~ #SOL 2021”
You are a beautiful writer! I was transported to your small ritual! And I’m jealous, I’ve tried journaling over the years but it never stuck. And yet, I blog daily, so maybe I found my outlet!
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Shari, how is it that with nearly every post, I am compelled to either laugh or cry, sometimes both! Your light-hearted approach in today’s piece is utterly endearing. I found myself giggling when I read, “My husband tells me that I’m not the daring kind, but he should see in the morning, filling my pen.” (Remember when you booked that cruise!) Thank you for your story, and where did you get that ink?!
This is beautiful! Surprised that using a fountain pen is such a meditative act and a newfound love. Have you read Fran’s Letter to Blue today? Your choice of hydrangea ink made me think of her post.
Shari, this is a wonderful description of a relatively simple (albeit dangerous) task. I’m inspired to look into such a pen myself. I don’t know why, but this reminds me of the act of sharpening a plane iron. Sharpening can also be a meditative task, and–like using a fountain pen to write–using the tool to bring a paper-thin curl of wood from a plank is a joy in and of itself. Thank you for sharing this!